Conquering the inbox

Today I got over myself and wrote a stupid email that should have been written days ago. I should feel better, but I don't, since I still have to wait for a reply, which is as anxiety-inducing as the process of actually writing it was. Then when the response arrives, I'll even procrastinate about opening it and READING it! Yay, my nerves are so bad!

Before all this started I had planned on starting to run again soon. My area is great for that. Near my place is a long, wide sidewalk which leads to another big stretch of sidewalk near a forested area which is usually pretty empty. When I get upset over something (which is all the time) I usually go for long night walks there, even during winter. It actually doesn't really calm me down that much if I'm super upset, but it's better than sitting and stewing. Of course, I'm not doing that now. Probably it'd be fine but who knows.

I'm randomly craving chanterelles. You can make a really yummy sauce with them. I'm not a huge mushroom person but I love chanterelles. That's something to look forward to in the summer.

Isolation Day 18

I really needed to do chores today and I didn't. I'm the kind of person that keeps their living space VERY neat and tidy because I find it difficult to be productive at home if I'm surrounded by a mess or things aren't in their place. It just gnaws at me in the back of my head until I do something about it because I can't focus when things aren't "right." Then I usually go on a cleaning and organising spree. Being at home 24-7 though, cleaning often has somehow become more difficult. You would think that in between the few other things I have to do here, I have plenty of time to clean, right? And you would be right. Yet the past few days I just don't feel like it.

I have been lying on the couch listening to Merzbow. Specifically his album Merzbuddha. It's not as harsh as people usually expect from him, and sounds great on headphones. I am a long time fan and I also attribute my becoming vegetarian to him (I have not yet become fully vegan, I'm a work in progress). Below, one of my favourite shirts, and what I'm wearing today:

Don't Kill Dolphins! This isn't my only Merzbow shirt. Pic is old, my hair is longer now

Isolation Day 13

Oh yeah, I have a neighbour who is making me lose my shit...and here's why. They're listening to music today and yesterday obnoxiously loud. OMG, they turned on that fucking La Bamba song at one point. I just always irrationally hated that song. Depending on who you ask, my hatred could be seen as totally rational. (Another song I always found weirdly unsettling is Freefalling. Sorry.)

At least it's not constant, but from time to time. This is a modern building and normally I don't ever have an issue with hearing my neighbours, not like when I lived in the Soviet-era places and could hear every footstep, every intimate moment of anyone above, below or next to me. Really, usually I never hear anything. I get it though. They are bored.

I guess I'm fortunate in that staying inside for prolonged periods of time has never bothered me. I do miss getting lunch at that Japanese restaurant near the train station. What I don't miss? I don't miss the smelly rude people of public transport.