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I finished reading Sister Carrie yesterday night. It was tedious at times, but overall, very good. I couldn't help but feel sorry for Hurstwood by the end of it, even if he was an unlikeable character (no one in this book is likeable). That was definitely one of the most striking downfalls I've ever read before. I thought about watching the 1952 film adaptation but I read it isn't true to the story so...no thanks. You can't leave out THAT ending, although it's obvious why they did, being the 1950s and all. I already downloaded An American Tragedy, also by Dreiser, so I'll probably read that next, if I don't start something else first.

Conquering the inbox

Today I got over myself and wrote a stupid email that should have been written days ago. I should feel better, but I don't, since I still have to wait for a reply, which is as anxiety-inducing as the process of actually writing it was. Then when the response arrives, I'll even procrastinate about opening it and READING it! Yay, my nerves are so bad!

Before all this started I had planned on starting to run again soon. My area is great for that. Near my place is a long, wide sidewalk which leads to another big stretch of sidewalk near a forested area which is usually pretty empty. When I get upset over something (which is all the time) I usually go for long night walks there, even during winter. It actually doesn't really calm me down that much if I'm super upset, but it's better than sitting and stewing. Of course, I'm not doing that now. Probably it'd be fine but who knows.

I'm randomly craving chanterelles. You can make a really yummy sauce with them. I'm not a huge mushroom person but I love chanterelles. That's something to look forward to in the summer.

Isolation Day 18

I really needed to do chores today and I didn't. I'm the kind of person that keeps their living space VERY neat and tidy because I find it difficult to be productive at home if I'm surrounded by a mess or things aren't in their place. It just gnaws at me in the back of my head until I do something about it because I can't focus when things aren't "right." Then I usually go on a cleaning and organising spree. Being at home 24-7 though, cleaning often has somehow become more difficult. You would think that in between the few other things I have to do here, I have plenty of time to clean, right? And you would be right. Yet the past few days I just don't feel like it.

I have been lying on the couch listening to Merzbow. Specifically his album Merzbuddha. It's not as harsh as people usually expect from him, and sounds great on headphones. I am a long time fan and I also attribute my becoming vegetarian to him (I have not yet become fully vegan, I'm a work in progress). Below, one of my favourite shirts, and what I'm wearing today:

Don't Kill Dolphins! This isn't my only Merzbow shirt. Pic is old, my hair is longer now